Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Last blogged @ 10:52 AM

IOJ are all full time orgasmic classsss :P
HI,
Currently having the most hectic moment of my life.
2 more days till 3 weeks of holidays(NOT).There's soooo many projects coming up stress mode on.

These days was not being myself and always breaking down at night in my room.Nobody knows about this except for Dayah.Everyday she'll be the one seeing me cry non-stop on cam.And my sincere apologies for making you cry because of me again.I just need time to boost myself and have all the confidence to show others what i am capable of.But for now it is still negative.

I am currently suffering from _______. I had no idea till i realised my symptoms came back,So i will be mostly in my own world stoning away staring into space. Always thinking why is it always me who always have to get back the same type of treatment over and over again.

I'm in denial hoping it was just my hallucination and telling myself everyday it is wrong assumption made by myself.

Monday, March 5, 2012
Last blogged @ 7:13 AM

This will never be the same again.


I should accept how things are now.
EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS FAMILY CHANGED.

you failed to understand my needs and priorities. But instead you went on finding faults.
Am i something you can vent on? since the day i started ITE,since the day you both found new jobs,things change.
Never once you asked me to sit down and share stories about school,if i am able to cope with studies,how were my friends like.NO,NOT AT ALL.since day 1,your task was to only pick on me.

I miss my old parents.I miss everything about this family.But this is not how i want things to be like.
WHERE ARE MY REAL UNDERSTANDING PARENTS:'(



I hate to retaliate back,i hate how i must do things to get your attention but this is the only way that i can do to get you both looking at me.


& piq.

I'm sorry for what happened just now.It was something i didn't expect the incident to happen when i'm with you  that my mood totally went down  after that.Hope you understand.My sincere apologies:/


goodnight.

Sunday, March 4, 2012
Last blogged @ 5:21 AM

Honestly and truthfully,

i miss having a fun and loving family. I missed the times when i was the only child. I miss being pampered,loved,caring and showered with everything from the feeling.Every single moment.

I don't have the courage and energy to even go home every single day where i'll be always only in my room cooping up myself. I rarely talk to ayah and ibu is somehow different,in a way. Its just not the same or maybe its just me?
Dad is always trying to pick up a fight with me without fail and yes he just confiscated my phone for a week and i just got back today.I was really at loss and yes its not a good start for the month of march.i broke down for more than 3 times?

Mum is in her own world .I really feel neglected in this family like they pay more attention towards my another 2 siblings and whereas i'll get the opposite treatment.Dad is not on talking terms with me.SIGH.

 But nevertheless,

I am always having fun with my friends. Somehow when i am with them they make me forget all the things and problems i'm having. My bechok especially lah haiyo,stop having infatuation and just admit it that its real:P Forget bout that stupid ex of you who bakes cookies at midnight!
But what happen to my Nurul Fakhira?How come she's nowhere in sight? I hope you are doing all good out there:/ Miss the times when we are in the same school where you'll get tired of seeing my face,yeah i miss that.

Currently
skyping with this cok and revising for my CA which is this week i guess?They suke2 give date only whether they want to give the test.March holidays is nearing and all of us are thinking of going for the walk-in interview at RWS. seeeeeeeeeee howwwwww.

ohhhhhhh yaaaaaaaaa,
i bet someone wants to see this,

HI PIQQY :P
congrats for completing the ocbc cycle eh eh eh!:D
Happy for you tapi,
RINDU:( CHEH padehal semalam dah jumpe.
HEHEHEH.
<3

okay till here.tomorrow is back to school and i hate hate OSA.
xoxo,

Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Last blogged @ 5:39 AM

Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Last blogged @ 4:08 AM

Gong Xi Gong Xi!

4 days of holidays is over and tomorrow will be back to school!Looking forward to it though :)
soooooooo, guess guess guess! I have reactivated back my twitter account after 2 long years and the last tweet was 2010 and i realised how kental i was omgomg.HAHAH.But blame me my followers is still very EEHEEM.Follow me @Naurahyunjoong :DDD
And im proud of myself today( chehangkatbodeksendiri.com) because i summarize my BPF alone and i finally understand it!!!!I also did the questions myself woots woots three cheers for me babyyyy

Nadira sleptover ma house last sun and there was a gathering at my crib and aunt.Since its been damn for god knows how long we all met at macd and had a story session till past 12!maciaam makcikpakciksss kepossss
:P
 As you can see,they all looked different except me i think i still looked the same-_____-
And then when we were all in the middle of happy moments,stupid things just happened and it had to ruin my fucking mood.GIVE ME A BREAK LAH PLEASE.LET ME MOVE ON,HAPPILYYYYY.
Everything right now is going fine for me,except i am always fighting with my parents everyday and i hate it.I'm always hoping and praying that they will understand me.Dad is always throwing tantrums at me and his hot tempered is always making things worse.As for mum,she failed to understand my needs.And its always about money.If not because of it,its always venting it on me.Sometimes I wonder if there is going to be a day where they'll let me live my own life because honestly,right now im not.i'm living to their orders.Yes as a child its my duty but not to the extent of making me stop school because of a certain issue that they are angry about which is actually bout my timetable and timing.
I HATE IT.I HATE TO BE OVERCONTROLLED.I'm seeking their understanding,REALLYREALLY understanding:/

Moving on,my CCA is ODAC and i love it!The bonding overall is a thumbs up.will be having camp on the 3,4,5 february.Cant wait!sorry Nadddddiraaaaaaaa i cant go to your house that day!

till here will update more and sooooooon :D

Monday, January 16, 2012
Last blogged @ 6:19 AM

For the first time,I LOVE GOING TO SCHOOL!
Actually,for the first time NO.I thought of quitting and not schooling in ITE.First day was,bleargh.New faces,new places,new environment,new friends.Basically just everything.I called mum and told her to cancel everything and just let me stop schooling.How much i hated cause i was so scared and alone at the same time.


But days went by and Slowly i managed to make myself comfortable with my new classmates.I liked it 10x better than my previous class because i was accepted for what i am and not being judged so easily.I hated going to school for the entire 4 years there mainly because i was being humilated,left out,criticised and even fights.yes,how bad it was that i was dragging myself to school.So my choice of ITE in bishan was my first choice because i wanted to start anew and meet new faces.Not that i dont want to be in the same school as bestf,but she understand my purpose so it was ok.Therefore,i do not regret choosing the choice of my school because i strongly believe that the class im in now is bonding very well each day.I am happy with each one in IOJ;)

you know,at least there isn't a someone who'll just bitch bout you everyday and sometimes even put words into my mouth and let me bear the consequences.I can talk and share anything to them and that is what im grateful for.

I'm looking forward to school now lah seh!hehe;)

(anw not pointing fingers to previous)

That's bout school!


but on personal matters,

Not too happy bout it though.Kept having flashbacks and its not what i wanted.Can you please vanish from my life?How am i supposed to forget when your sibling is in that school:/
I want to live as though you dont exist but i doubt i can do that now because everytime when i am about to;somehow and  somewhat you'll just appear .I just want to be happy.I make people happy but im unhappy with myself-__-


I'm hoping almost everyday that i wouldnt bump into you for the reason that i might just look and not turn away:/

Night.

Friday, January 6, 2012
Last blogged @ 7:06 AM

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